I haven’t been diagnosed or anything, I’m not allowed to go to a therapist. But I’ve always struggled with explaining my emotions, to the point it just frustrates me. I can’t remember most of my childhood but I do know now a days I can’t seem to physically show what I want to. I want to scream and shout and cry cause I’m mad and sad but I just cant. And I don’t understand why. Sorry if this was super off topic
Topic: Do you guys struggle with expressing the feeling you really want to
HI and welcome to the Forum
Seems like you are in a really tough place. Explaining emotions is really hard at times.
I feel like a lot of my life has been going through the motions without any real idea what I was feeling. Super intense emotions are easy to peg, but all the ones in-between are really a mystery. I really want to understand this better. I want to feel what other people feel. I think I had a pretty traumatic childhood and I just learned to suppress my emotions for the most part. I don't trust easily. I've been betrayed by people I thought were supposed to be there for me. Anyway, yes, I am someone who struggles to express my everyday emotions. I was married and got used to sharing my life with someone and when she left, I felt so alone. I miss having someone who is there for me.
Ok, so I got therapy where I was supposed to integrate emotions, and it did more harm than good. My life has been a living hell since therapy. And this emotional “integration” has been hell. I prefer disregarding them.
But disregarding them was how I got into abusive relationships.
Fudge, at least I was not suffering. Rejection… more extreme that disappointment.
Would probably have been to good to identify and prioritize those negative feelings. Rejection isn’t one you have the power to overcome on your own, though, so there was no avoiding it, just choosing between which flavor of snot sandwich you could stomach. Or obligation.
Friggen hate emotions. All of them. Life would be better without them.
Sorry to hear that the therapy was counter productive.
Life (emotional life especially) can just suck simply because everyone wants the same thing - to experience sharing in emotions with another but also to experience emotions simultaneously with another person - sometimes I feel like people are sucking emotions out by looking at the character of a person without affirming that persons character and that dynamic they share as to be the observer of one another and consequently I feel they are abusing that privilege by taking motivation from that persons character to enhance their own emotions and life. This devalues one’s emotional life as not relevant to the formation of their own character - but whose in this re-presentation ? Which one ? When our emotions don’t matter in one sense that means they must matter all the more in another sense and we can take note of that sense that is of more value than the other and be compassionate to the emotional state of the person less valued emotionally at that moment. Compassion has deep importance and meaning and sometimes it’s at work and working well just in the background.